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It's an iPhone only photo sharing lifestream app. Pictures are uploaded directly from your iPhone to your profile where friends can "follow" and stay up to date - sorta like Twitter. You may be wondering why there's a need for yet another photosharing service. Okimok is more like a lifestream. Only the most recent 15 photos are displayed in your stream. Older ones are disgarded. Think of it as a cool way to visually check out what your friends are doing.

Here's my Okimok, follow me!

About 5 years ago a huge rift formed in my family. We were always loving towards each other in our own discreet ways but when love isn't overtly stated in a sort of terminal manner, it can get lost in translation.

Betrayal, infidelity and selfishness all had a hand in dismantling the awkwardly tight-knit communion we formed as a family group. Sides were taken, unspoken words were carelessly disseminated and in the end we all went our separate ways pretending hoping time, as it always had, would overcome.

For a strictly religious family who held itself high on buddhist axioms, we forgot the golden rule - and in doing so lost all compassion for one another. I have never considered myself a religious person nor have I delved too deep into any religiosity. Innately I've always known that love and compassion come and go hand in hand and in my exit from my family group, I became "disaware" of my own coldness.

In my heart of hearts I know I love them and I am a forgiving person, but it is at times hard to dethrone myself from the center of my own universe and place another there. I have to reach back to my adolescent memories and remind myself of all the people who hurt me and all the ones who metaphorically grabbed me by the scruff of my neck and dragged me back up. It is this appreciation, from my own experience, that has given me the strength to really forgive and forget.

Do they forgive me for everything I said, did - done? I don't know and I don't care because as the poem goes,

"if equal affection cannot be, let the more loving one be me." - W.H. Auden The More Loving One

Fall and winter are my favorite seasons mainly because in Los Angeles, it's mild in the day and only a little chilly at night. I basically pull out money I horde during the summer (because I hardly ever shop then) and go nuts in the stores. I've also noticed like most men I try to purchase everything at once. It's much less hassle because if I ever do return to the stores, it's to buy basics like undies and socks. I don't want to have to think about anything else - just in and out of the stores.

Oddly I define my seasonal wardrobe by what footwear I buy first. They set the stage and everything else becomes secondary or decorative. I try not to prescribe to any "fashion rules." I wear what I want regardless of whether it makes me look short, fat, stubby, or weird. Somewhere along the way somebody got way too serious and decided fashion - which is supposed to be trendsetting - needed to follow conformist rules. BLAH to that.

Hit the jump to see my fall/winter 2008-2009 wardrobe.

I am SOOO going to do this when I get back home this weekend.